sadness around :( ):

tonite, sad nite again. Sigh. Donno wat happen. I`ve been waiting for dis month for so long, birthday mar. N i hope to celebrate my birthday wif 'him'. But, sadness.. i plan to go ou on dis sat.. n i asked 'him' to go.. he said not sure yet.. nvm.. i will wait for the answer. After few days, i ask him to confirm wif mii on friday whether he can go on sat anot. N he said 'confirm d le.. cant le'. I was so freaking dissapointed. I tot he can go. N i was damn happy. But now he said dat he cant go, sadness around. Sigh. Everynite sure sad. Automatic de. Cant control wan. Haihz. How i wish dat everything can b bek lik last time. Even though got arguement.. but i prefer dat. Its better than now. Cant sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep!!!! TT TT!! zzz..